Something Undefined

This day has been marked... February 26, 2006... The excitement last night almost kept me awake till 2:30 AM, I can't sleep, my mind was filled with images of me... driving my car... my very own car... a childhood dream about to be realized at the age of 23... I fell asleep and had nightmares... yes.. nightmares... I dreamt that Mr. Estrada (the seller) told me that he wanted me to give him 11k in cash before he let us have the car... how in the world will I be able to produce that amount in a day???... Its like being punched hard in the face! Then my father woke me up, it was already 7:30 AM in the morning... thanking god that it was just a dream... I took a bath and helped father and Mang Rommy clear the inner part of our garage... bye bye ping pong table hehehe! -------------------- TAMA NA ENGLISH DI AKO MAKAPAGKWENTO NG MALAYA!!! San tayo ulet.. edi ayun na nga.... itinapon lahat ng tambak sa garahe, lahat ng di kelangan, mga upuan na bakal inilagay lahat sa likod bahay... tap...

Its 4:41 in the afternoon... my mind is filled with stuffs... emotional stuffs and other things which shouldnt be there in the first place... The date is February 25, 2006... My dream is only a sleep ahead... I'm very excited... I just can't wait for tomorrow... but I have to.. or it'll never come. February 26, 2006... this day will mark deep into my life's history. I can feel it already... my body is anticipating everything... One of my ultimate dream is now about to be fulfilled. I've been disapointed so manytimes.. been struggling enough... I really hope this time... everything will materialize... Right now all I can do is wait.. still expecting the worst... and hoping for the best... better practice to hold my tears... I'm a MAN! not a cheesecake. February 26, 2006 - in this blog I mark this day...

Friday afternoon, medyo na buburn ako sa kakaisip sa ginagawa ko so tumambay muna ko at nagpahangin sa balcony ng office namin... tinatanaw ang maganda at makulay na sementeryo ng makati... Tapos bigla nlang pumasok sa isip ko tong situation na to... May Pari at Madre... devoted sila sa kanilang duty kay god... magkaibigan ung dalawa at matagal ng magkasama sa simbahan. Tapos nagkaron sila ng mission sa rome, so sumakay sila sa eroplano papuntang rome... tapos nagkaron ng malfunction sa plane then bumagsak ito... Habang nabagsak, nagtapat yung pari ng love nya sa madre, at yung madre nagtapat din ng kanyang nararamdaman sa pari... Nagyakap silang dalawa, at nag kiss... ang kanilang first and final kiss... Then the plane crashes and they died instantly... Devoted sila as servant of god, but sa final moments nila.. sinuway nila ang vow nila as Pari and Madre... Sa tingin nyo... san mapupunta yung dalawa? sa Heaven or sa Hell? Till now medyo nalilito ako sa pwede kong isagot sa sariling ...

Your Five Variable Love Profile Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is low. You see love as a gift that you should give to many. It's hard for you to imagine being with one person at at time... Let alone one person for the rest of your life! Experience Level: Your experience level is medium. You probably have had a couple significant loves. And you may have even had your heart broken. But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people. Dominance: Your dominance is low. This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced. You know a relationship is not about getting your way. And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom. Cynicism: Your cynicism is low. You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance. No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter. You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate. And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon. Independence: Your independence is medium....

This year, first time ko na umpisahan yung mass, usually kasi dumadating ako mga start na yung sermon at hindi ko na narinig yung pagbabasa ng bible. Pero ngayon sakto ang dating ko, kakatapos lang ng Communion, so tumambay muna ko sa labas ng simbahan, nagpacute sa mga girls sa labas... na puro may dalang anak... Tapos nung nag end na yung unang mass... pumasok nako... to make the story short... sa announcements sa Mass nag discuss yung priest about the town fiesta activities... pero hindi kami kasama dun dahil sa ibang baryo ako.. at iba ang aming patron saint. Natawa lang ako sa sinabi nya na... ang fiesta daw ay pagdiriwang lamang ng mga Katoliko, hindi kasama ang mga Iglesia ni Kristo, Dating Daan etc.. dahil hindi naman sila naniniwala sa Patron Saints or sa kahit anong saints na reason kung bakit tayo nagdiriwang. Sabi nya, maghanda kayo ng masasarap sa pagdiriwang, pero pag may dumating na Iglesia sa inyong handaan... ang ibigay niyo ay Dinuguan at Puto. HAHAHAHA! Sabi nya ba...

SYEMPRE DAHIL MASAYA AKO HINDI KO IINGLISIN TONG POST NA TO!!!! Umaga ng linggo tol.. aga kong nagising... cyempre dahil hindi ko sinuot ung polo kong orange sa office dahil sa kadahilanang nakakatawa.. yun nalang ang sinuot ko papunta ng simbahan.. wala naman kasing cubicle na orange and blue sa church eh... so after ng mass dumaan ako ng 711 at bumili ng c2 ang el paborito kong drink... dahil 40 pesos lang ang cash ko... talagang todo tipid. Pag uwi ko tsaka ko lang naalala na may laban nga pala si Pacman... buti nalang naalala ko.. So buksan ko muna ang PC ko... at dahil naiwan ko ang internet kong bukas magdamag... naubos ang prepaid ng walang katuturan. Tapos biglang sumigaw si papa.. BENJO!! UMPISA NA!! so taka naman ako.. ang aga pa ah! mga 9:20 palang ata un.. So karipas ako buksan ko TV at ayun nga si Pacman at Morales... round 2 na... so grabe SIGAW AKO!! SUNTOK SA HANGIN!! TALON!! super excited! tapos tuwang tuwa ako tapos biglang nagka ka cut si Manny sa mata... sigaw ako ...

QT, one of the many mysterious "words" that my friends use to describe things that are meant to be understandable. They use this so called word every time, I'm kinda curious bout its meaning but haven’t got the urge or enough curiosity to ask them, "what the hell QT it is?". I thought that the meaning means "cute" you know, like the SMS shortcut to everything.. like "wait" -> "w8" but whenever they use the word I don’t see any other person around... So I just told myself... "QT?? whatever!", But last Tuesday while having lunch in the most exquisite canteen in the world... damn sarcasm is really getting into me lately... so anyway... while having lunch with my friends, the QT word once again pops out... suddenly curiosity punched me in the balls making me blurt out... "Ano ba talaga ibig sabihin ng QT na yan?!"... and so it happened... they told me that the meaning of QT is "Quality Time"... I real...

As I posted last week, I planned to catch the culprit who dumps garbage on our uhmmm well.. "private" trash area... Well anyway.. this time its a whole lot different... Coz papa accompanied me on a different hunt... hunting for the right car... though I still havent got enough savings and my sideline isnt really going along my expectations... Still, I'm feeling a bit more confident and "excited" that one of my dreams will be realized... soon. Like my friend told me.. "Faith is believing in things you do not see and the reward of faith is to see what you believe"... wow... typing those words got me a bit emotional... tomorrow my Sis and her husband will be coming over so we could discuss bout this matter... can't sleep with excitement! I guess I have enough faith, well I got LOADS of them actually. Haaaay... but... I shouldnt excite myself too much... I need to look into both sides of life and expect the unexpected... expect the worst and hope for ...

After work.. nagkayayaan.... after yaya nagkasayahan.. tsaka ko na eedit to.. mag tatrabaho pa ako.. bow..

A colleague told me that the movie, The Chronicles of Narnia, the lion the witch and the wardrobe is a movie so amazing that it beats Harry Potter... and being a Harry Potter fan... I objected... almost instantly even before she finishes her sentence. But her telling me that its better than Harry Potter left me curious... Me and my gf went to see the movie late this afternoon... and I'm quite amazed to see the theater jam-packed with people, fortunately when we went inside the movie was about to finish so we didn’t have to wait that long to find a seat. The movie starts with bomber planes bombing the town of our protagonists, and because of the war they were sent to a professor who lives far away from the town... from the war zone... in there they found the wardrobe which led them to the world of Narnia... The graphics was quite nice, specially the lion, with his fluffy mane moving with the wind... the gryphon’s, centaurs and minotaur was made nicely... imagine if Exodus where able...

Kristin Kreuk was born on December 30, 1982, in Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada. She was "discovered" during her senior year of high school, when she was chosen for the role of Laurel in the CBC series Edgemont. Kristin still resides in Vancouver, and for several years in addition to appearing regularly on Smallville, she continued her role on Edgemont. She enjoys reading, travel, and spending time with her friends and family. You can also see Kristin on ads for Neutrogena. She has also been featured in many magazines such as FHM. May kamukha cyang waitress sa Giligans Makati, kaya ang sarap kumain don eh... haaay... bisyo na toh! Si Natalie Portman kasi eh... nag model sa KAMISETA na mukha syang bakla, nabadtrip tuloy ako.

After work.. deretso uwi... pag dating sa bahay... habang nakanta ko ng Californication.. nag kwento si mama na may nag tatapon daw ng mga basura sa may gilid ng bakod namin.. at di lang maliliit na supot.. talagang malakeng itim na trash bags.. kala ko no big deal.. pero nung nakita ko ung basura hala nag init din ang ulo ko! Yung kapit bahay naming si Ate Eva, nag lagay na ng karatula na "Ako ay balahura, itinatapon ko sa ibang bahay ang basura ng pamilya ko" taray diba? Sabay si Papa gumawa naman ng karatula "BAWAL MAG TAPON NG BASURA, PRIBADONG LUGAR ITO... Ipababaranggay ang mahuhuli" diba mataray din.. kaso lang ung part na ipababaranggay di na nag kasya sa cartolina kaya ang liit nalang.. para tuloy pag babantang galing sa ilong. Eto ko ngayon.. nag ready.. huhuntingin ko kung sino mang hunghang ang nagtatapon ng basura sa gilid namin... na pump ko na ang airgun namin, na test ko na at ang lakas lakas.. astig. at nakakasa na.. ipuputok nalang. Inilagay namin ...

Hmmmm... dahil on-leave nako ngayon araw na ito, I can do pretty much anything sa buong araw. Pero hindi ko pwedeng ma waste ang chances na magkaron ng freetime sa pagtulog nalang maghapon... so ang plano ko ay gumala at mag canvass ng aking carlaloo. Cge medyo wasak ang pangako dahil tinanghali ako ng gising kanina, nag celebrate kasi kami ng birthday ni Marco kagabi and talaga nga naman napasarap talaga ko.. ang laki panga ng daliri ko ngayon sa sobrang sarap hahaha. (sa mga hindi nakakagets, may konting allergy ako sa alak na namamaga ang daliri ko pag nasosobrahan ako.. so wag ng magisip ng ano paman... ok) Nagising ako mga 11:30PM na, nagmamadali akong bumangon, takbo sa garahe at nakito nandun pa ang aming toyota high adventure... so ok pa.. hindi umalis si father dear so may magagamit akong panggala... kain ako.. hilamos toothbrush... (oo hindi ako naligo sa sobrang excited)... sakay sa aming sasakyan and off I go in search for the star... Derecho ako sa nagbebenta ng used cars ...

At biglang bumaba ang mga anghel sa langit at itinuloy ang aming reunion... although hindi lahat ng inaasahang makakapunta ay nakapunta, astig parin dahil nagkasama sama parin kaming magkakabarkada and nagdatingan din naman ang mga taong hindi mo talaga inaasahang makapunta kaya astig! Konti lang ang handa namin ng araw na yon. 1. 2 Fundador 2. 25 bottles ng Sanmig Light 3. 4 1.5 liters na softdrinks 4. 3 kilong adobong ribs 5. Sopas 6. Hotdog 7. Siomai 8. Ham 9. Carbonara 10. Fruit Salad 11. Sitsirya (nagaraya, etc) 12. Squidballs 13. Orlians 14. Chicken Balls 15. Kikiam 16. Mango Pineapple Candies Umarkila ako ng videoke machine, cyempre hati hati kami dahil 1,500 ang isang arkilahan ng ganun, so habang hinihintay ang videoke, nag pingpong muna kami. Astig dahil for the first time nakapag doubles kami sa Pingpong, at ang hirap pala ng doubles dahil salitan ang laban.. eh hindi ako sanay! Inaasahan ng lahat na yung barkada namin na si BRIAN ay makaksama namin sa occasion dahil umuwi c...

Unang una, Happy Christmas sa inyong lahat mga barkada kong nagbabasa ng aking munting blog! Malamang nung sabado medyo busy din ang cellphone nyo kakatunog, at kakatanggap ng mga Merry Christmas Messages... astig maka receive nito, ibig sabihin lang talaga naalala ka nilang batiin ng pasko and astig talaga. Nakakatawa rin basahin yung mga messages ng TATAY ng mga inaanak ko.... mga tipong messages na kulang nalang sabihin nilang.. WAG KA TATAKAS KUNDI HAHANTINGIN KA NAMIN!!! Nakakalibang din makatanggap ng messages sa mga taong hindi mo inaasahang magpapadala sayo ng messages. Isa na dito ay ang aking ka versus na si Daisy. Sa mga hindi nakakakilala sa taong ito, cya ang isa sa mga cute ng girls na dumapo sa buhay ko at ginawang mala circus ang pangaraw araw kong buhay sa office. Hindi ko malilimutan tong taong to dahil ang sarap sarap nyang kasama, nakakatawa talaga and take note.. malakas kumain tong bata nato ewan ko lang kung bakit hindi nananaba. Isa cya sa mga taong nag text sak...

Dadating na ang christmas and eto nanaman kaming magkakabarkada, nag paplano nanaman ng aming reunion.... teka hmm... kelan ba natuloy ang mga planadong reunion??... wala ko maalala eh... parang pagpinaguusapan eh pag tagal ang usapan ay nauuwi sa mga dating pagibig.. bat ganon??? kahit saang pagpaplano doon nauuwi? astig pero grabe.... hahaha may nalalala ako! Anyway... i edit ko nalang tong post na to pag natuloy na ang aming reunion or kung ano man ang plans namin.. kasi kanina nag daladlan ang napagusapan lang ay tungkol sa kamanyakan ni Brian eh.. hahahaha!!! ASTEG!

Kung napanood nyo, or nabasa ang Harry Potter malamang ay familiar kayo sa Pensieve... ito ay yung parang bowl na pinaglalagyan ng mga memories ni Dumbledore para hindi nya ito malimutan... or para hindi nya ito laging bitbit.. para sakin tong blog na to ay parang pensieve din.. tambakan nga mga memories na ayaw kong makalimutan... or gusto kong iluwal sa aking isip para gumaan naman ang pakiramdam ko... ang kaso nga lang naman... tong pensieve kong ito ay accesible ng maraming tao.. oks lang dahil di ko naman kilala yung ibang napapadpad dito eh.. so anyway... mag kwento lang ako sa aking blog. Kanina after ng christmas party ng DiaVox sa I.O. kung saan kasama parin ako, mga 2:00 AM natapos yun eh.. at dahil medyo natatamad pa kami umuwi ni Francis, we decided na ituloy ang inuman namin sa gilligans sa may glorietta. So from Jupiter, naglakad kami sa may Makati Ave. hangang Glorietta... hindi pala biro na lakaran ang ginawa namin dahil ang layo.. astig dahil first time ko nalakad ang ...

Something Undefined III Unmasking… Once again I suffer… History repeats itself… I look up into the vast sky… I ask god if this is supposed to happen… If this is his will… so be it… I unsheathed my sword… as I face my invader… With all the strength I gave it my final slash… Unmasking the truth as I ran the sword through its body… And what I’ve seen surprised me the most… Once more I nearly become a victim of this false emotion… To think that I nearly left my goddess undefended… And though it hurts I need to learn its color… Accept the fact that nothing from it is best… I became a victim of my own stupidity… Like a blunt sword in the middle of a battle field… This is a test… I knew it… from god… He wants me to realize it for my self… The goddess that I searched for… The goddess I need to keep… For she saw me like no one else has been... Though she sometimes act strange… I nearly forget the fact, the reason that I found her… I nearly forget why she’s unique from all the rest… My goddess i...

Character 1: Tigilan na natin 'to. Nagsisimula pa lang tayo, I somehow know it's never going to work out. It's the world against us, can't you see? We'll just end up hurting each other more. Character 2: But... Character 1: Langit ka, lupa ako. You can never come down and I can never go up. Character 2: Tell it to the falling stars. Nabasa ko ito sa post ni Markus sa Barkada Blog namin nagandahan ako, tama nga naman... kung gusto may paraan kung ayaw may dahilan... di ko lam kung tama interpretation ko pero parang ganun hehe

... nag apply ako ng google adsense para magkadatung naman ang blog na to... at anong nangyari? WALA! DENIED ANG ANAK NG PATENG! ang rason! DI DAW SUPPORTED ANG LENGWAHE NA GINAGAMIT KO! nakanamputik naman oh! Adsense nonsense! palamuti na sana sa blog naging bato pa! Maybe I should continue posting in english.. but how can I express myself freely? Owel thats life.. adsense nonsense!